If you will it, dude, it is no dream. I wish I believed that were true, somehow I think I have lost my will to do more than just survive; because, really, whats the use? What impact could I really make? The depth of community sought is more than most can understand. I live music, the likes of which most cannot fathom. Yet I have lost the drive to just do. My fire has been reduced to mere embers, waiting for just that right amount of wind to spark it back to a roar. Creativity is on its death bed waiting for old age to take the very breath that summoned it from the beginning. The ego being sacrificed on the alter of the necessity of life. Whats funny is that if you are reading this you may see or think “This man is in despair, he needs help,” but I have made my peace. I look to the future, in faith, with hope, but in full awareness that my time is not mine. I move forward, one step at a time further from what I was moving towards what I am, and what I am is yet to be seen. What becomes of me? Its decided here and now. Just wait and see.

i should do it more often. but on the list of priorities that include keeping my sanity, this isnt on the top of the list. although, i think about it regularly. we’ll see… we’ll see…

*disclaimer* I fully expect someone to tell me I am wrong; I will tell you this, you can’t convince me that I am not on the right track.

I am disgusted.

I find that our society, in many areas, gets its head stuck up its ass so far that it cannot see anything else but itself. Hell of an introductory sentence, right? Here is what I mean…

I see on the news and social networking various articles and posts on this “occupy” movement that has swept the nation. This concerns me. It concerns me because these are the same people that want to think globally on so many issues, but when I see what is being discussed it seems to be a very myopic; because, when the wealth status is measured globally the majority of America is the 1% and that includes the person holding the sign that says “We are the 99%.” The problem is that very same person is someone who wants our country to think globally both environmentally and politically. My wife and I believe in giving. We support a child at an orphanage in Kenya, we also pay someones monthly salary who works at the orphanage, and by no means are making a lot of money; but that is just it, we are. I am not telling this brag, rather to say I am part of that myopic 99%. If we get off the micro scale and start talking about a global scale of what real injustice is, because that really is what is at the heart of this movement, the real injustice is the child that is going to hungry for days at a time if not for the financial support of the so called “poor in America.” It is not an injustice for someone that has a degree to have to work a retail job, or not work in their field, or be laid off when that particular person can get a job that pays the bills but may not necessarily be able to live the extravagant lifestyle they were once used to. Simply, being forced to not be as a big of a consumer as you once were is not an injustice. I think our society needs to learn what real injustice is. This is not an opportunity for you, the reader to tell me that we have injustice all around us in this country, because I agree with you, we do. What I do not agree with is the bull shit that the 1% are collectively are oppressing you, my friends, my family, my neighbor, or me. If we want to see the injustices gone, we need action; and standing on a street corner with a sign is not action. We need people who will give both their time and money to something that is more than just themselves, and do not tell me paying your taxes absolves you from generosity. We need people who will forgo that extra beer or coffee here and there, that meal that you ate out when you could have made dinner and had friends or family over, or heaven forbid, that new video game. We need people who will live within their means, people who will make a budget and be practical. Many of you know I am a Christian, and you are damn right in thinking that I am being influenced by those beliefs right now. Jesus came to the broken, the cast out, the down on their luck, the marginalized people. If, we as the 1% of the world are bitching that we are the 99% in our country, that seriously makes all of us look like the greedy, the swindlers, and the oppressors. Yes, things could be better here with Wall Street, but come off it already. You have a good life. If you think you don’t, then you need to get out of your localized world and see the world.

What is wrong with us. As we sit in our homes, enjoy our sterile life; there are kids in our city, even our own neighborhoods that are being forced to do unspeakable things. God have mercy on them, and us. My heart breaks and I am a broken man, imagine our Father… Imagine His heart.

Invest in your city. If not directly, then with prayer. Prayer for the men and women on the front lines. Give your money to the organizations saving kids from a life drugs, sexual abuse, and hopelessness… Don’t hide behind your sterile, false humility. God forgive me for my laziness and give me Your heart for the marginalized. Help to me to embrace Your love and justice.

We have the right to protest; but what is the point if you protest on a day where government is not in session (i.e. today), or where you protest is where people agree with you (like the hip part of town that you live and hang out in, where everyone is just like you… you might just call it a group walk). Wouldn’t a protest be better off where the lawmakers are? Or how about in a part of town that believes different than you? Its easy to hyped up in your own neighborhood and around your friends… Grow a pair, and if you want to make your point do it in a way that makes an impact…

That said, both sides are wrong. Don’t homogenize me. I need Jesus, you need Jesus. That is truth.

Truth is a Rock. It never changes. Truth is pure, it is defined as fidelity to an original or standard. Think about it. Without Truth everything is false. Not essential or permanent; not genuine, inaccurate, based on mistaken ideas… C.S.Lewis talked about this in his book “mere Christianity”… Particularly the fact all of the various societies and cultures have governing laws about what is good and bad. I am aware they are varying in degree; however, the vast majority have relatively consistent values. Most people call them natural laws. The question begs, where do they come from? Let’s go back to Truth, it is a Rock. It never changes. So, where does this truth come from? It can’t be humanity, because we just agreed that most societies and cultures have natural laws to govern ourselves… That means we are flawed, jacked up people, and cannot keep these laws; because if we could keep them why would we need them? Again, where do they come from? More to come about where they come from and why they are there…

It has always been “huge”. It is our perceptions that have changed. Just like everything else in life, perception tries to be our reality. However, the truth is our mass is still proportion to the moon. Simply I am 5’6.5” tall 140lbs… The moon is still it’s height and weight too. That said, truth is outside of our perceptions; rather, is not limited to them. Though our perceptions may be accurate, they can be just as inaccurate. So what do we do? That is to come.

I wish I had something intrinsic to say… But that has already been done. I do not believe in original thought; just influenced extrapolated thought. Opinions that are from people who depraved and broken. Our Creator uses 66 books to get our own story across to us; it’s poetry, history, a narrative. Yet we still have issue to be. Being. Living. A child lives in reliance from his father, so we ought to live. Free from toil, strife, worry… In this originality does not exist, because we are of our Father, who has all of origin in His hands. He is the creator, He is life, He is truth. With out Him we really are nothing, with out his control we would cease to exist. Theologians call this common grace, but it is still grace. Take time, be still, and know that He is God.

I have nothing original to say….

I love it just as much as I hate it. The majority of people don’t even know what it’s about. It is not about green beer and wearing green. The same goes for cinco de mayo… Now that i think about it, most things Americans do that to. Awesome.